People: January 2008 Archives
'I''ve been looking so long at these pictures of you that i almost believe that they're real' - The Cure, Pictures of You
How adolescent of me. Don't laugh.
So, it's Saturday. Way-hey.
This week has been kind of crappy, despite the horoscope predictions of a fabulous week. Monday was good.
I spent some time working out on Monday evening and the company was fab. That just happens sometimes, you know?
Thursday was good too, it was Ms Blonde But Bright's birthday drinks. I drove with Citizen Stu to Leiden and we had a little mini-blogger meet in amongst all the real people. Thanks J!
I got lost on the A2 driving Stu back home because I was talking too much, but it was fun. Stu, let's get lost again together sometime.
In retrospect it hasn't been crappy at all. The only aspect that's been crappy is money.
The loss of it, the not having it.
Oh well.
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Saturday seems to be the day when I collect all my uncollected thoughts and put them in one place. Here's one - how odd it is that I can read enough German and French to order from various online shops? Linguistic shopping abilities - chalk up 110% for Ash. Real life German and French skills? Uh.
Here's another: Tamara-the-uber-trainer told me today that people find it difficult to step over the threshold and get themselves into a gym because once inside you are confronted with yourself.
Not only the physical shortcomings, but the mental ones too, determination and drive, fear of failure. I never thought of it that way but it's true. Every time you walk in you make a choice. I guess I'm not so bad at making choices after all.
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The online shopping I did was at amazon.de. I bought a whole heap of books. Carol Ann Duffy's Rapture, The New Rules of Lifting for Women, Tim Winton's Cloudstreet and Henry & June, Anais Nin.
Don't try and find any connection between any of the books on the list. Unless I'm bodybuilding to find rapture on Cloudstreet using Anais Nin as my guidebook?
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I trained so hard today that I thought my nose might bleed. Unrelated to that: coconut really is the best flavour of protein powder.
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The Amazing Adventures of Dietgirl came! (Addressing Shauna directly) Woweeeeee babe! You are so hot! I had never gone through your whole blog before because I only started reading about a year ago but so much of what you say in the book is my story too. I could tell you all the similarities but that would be boring. Instead I'm just going to say thank you so much for sharing what you have to say! Big hugs!
(Addressing the rest of you lot again) Go and buy Shauna's book. Even if you're not trying to lose weight, not struggling with an eating disorder, even if you're a man and you think it's a girly book. She's side-splittingly funny, she has a perspective on life that is guaranteed to be different from your own, she comes from a time and place very much like mine. Oh, and I'm telling you to. So shoo! Go!
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Last Sunday evening I went with my girlfriend T to the possibly-ultra-hip&happening Panama. I say 'possibly' because these places are not usually hip once someone tells someone else that they're hip. Know what I mean?
We went to watch Xandra van Rossem, a friend of T's who I had met once before at a different concert, sing at Jazz it Up.
I was completely speechless. She is breathtaking. I can't remember what she sang now, but the atmosphere was amazing and her voice is piercingly clear, yet surprisingly warm.
The club felt so 1930s. The piano and a barstool for the singer in the centre of the room, beanbags and low stools arranged all around, tables and chairs at the outside. The fake fog swirled, the conversation flowed, the jazz types were there in their hats and suits. Couples kissing on the beanbags while Xandra sang.
It felt glamorous and grownup. I could see myself in a cocktail dress, stocking-clad legs crossed demurely at the ankle, lipsticked mouth neatly sipping from my glass while I sat across the table from my partner in crime who carefully leaned forward to light my cigarette.
To listen to Xandra you need to click this link, then choose Nederlands (the English version isn't done yet), choose music, scroll down and listen to my favourite, Boulevard of Broken Dreams. Ah.
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A photo of mine was used for Schmap! Cool beans, huh? It looks like a cute application. In the summer I plan to photograph more. You can trawl through Amsterdam's Schmap yourself to find the photo.
Other great photography that I came across this week is from Xelia. Go see. Take heed, flickr will ask you if you want to go back to the kittens. 'Tis all I'm saying. Beautiful photography. I love it.
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I rejoined the Daring Bakers. I will be daringly baking tomorrow. Anyone want some? Come over around 4. Phone first please, let me know you're coming. I wouldn't want to be surprised.
And that ends Saturday's long, languid post. Long and languid is the best kind, right?
'You got a way of walking, you got a way of talking...' - Shane McGowan & Sinead O'Connor, Haunted
I was browsing youtube yesterday and I came across that video up there. It's a film someone made for filmschool - pretty damned good don't you think? It also is sung by the Pogues, who you know I like from before.
Yesterday I was the one haunted by the ghost. Not the ghost of your precious love like in the song.
The ghost of lost youth and forgotten holidays. Even though the youth was just a year ago and the holidays were just a week ago.
At work it was as though someone took a hefty dose of discontent and circulated it in the airconditioning. The director was pissy and it filtered down from there. By 2 pm everyone had had a bollocksing. The irritation was palpable in every office. I think it had finally settled in that the vacation was over and this was real life.
Later on I was in the gym and it was all midlife crisis in action. Testosterone spill. You could almost smell it in the air.
Poor darlings, their new year resolutions all parked outside with their inappropriately expensive shiny cars. It's always like this in January but it seems more desperate this year.
Maybe because today I'm 34! I get to join with in the midlife crisis crowd and this time I can play too!
Other birthday stuff later.
